To return to work...or not????

Lately the I've been weighing a HUGE issue on my mind. To return back to my job after our baby comes, or to stay home. Assuming I end up having a choice, it will all depend on Raynor's job situation. I am just so proud of him. Before this pregnancy we were happy with where we both were in life. We were happy in the moment and never really looked ahead at the future. And I don't think there was anything wrong with that at the time considering we are both very young. But then we got pregnant and all of a sudden life was no longer just about us. We had another very important little person to consider. Almost right away, that same week Raynor started looking at other job oppertunities. So far he is applying for two different jobs. However, even if he does get a new job it will still be a tough decision to make. Having a baby is expensive and if I stop working thats going to be about 2500 dollars less a month in our income. That will hurt! We have been privilaged enough to live a comfortable life. We are by NO MEANS rich, but our bills are paid, and we have enough money left over to go out to dinner, see movies, and buy things for ourselves on occasion. If I end up staying home we will be down the just the basics. No more dinners out, no more movies. Raynor will have to stop buying stuff to support his fishing hobby, and I will have to stop buying shoes, clothes, handbags ect. Then I look at the other side of it and how much it would impact our daughter's life to have me at home. I used to work in a daycare center before the bank. At let me tell you, it broke my heart how many first steps I saw taken, first words babbled, and first smiles and laughs that the parents didn't get to see. Children only get one childhood and parents only get one chance to see it. Looking at it from that angle makes me want to stay home. I don't know, I'm sure everything will fall into place once she is here. Maybe it will be more clear then.